Papa Was a Violent
Stone-Thrower
by Clarissa Coleman 

My parents are having a trial separation right now. I think that’s the word—what’s it called when your dad wallops your mom in the head with a brick and they lock him up? That’s what’s going on anyhow.

It’s nothing new for the Coleman clan, but I can understand the police getting all upset about it seeing as how a brick is real hard and stuff. It’s not like dad meant to hurt her, they were just re-modeling the place and there’s not a lot of soft stuff to grab when you get suddenly enraged, so a brick was handy. The irony is super, though, since they were in the police station to bail my uncle Luke out. At least dad didn’t have to suffer that humiliating ride downtown in handcuffs.

If you ask me, and I know I’m asking me, Uncle Luke should have known better. I like him and all, but if the judge throws the book at him I’ll understand perfectly. Uncle Luke made a bet that the cops can’t bust you for possession if the weed is sitting in the passenger seat while you’re driving, like it defies technical definitions of possession. I was educated by a poorly-paid on-set tutor and even I know anywhere in your car counts as possession, it’s like a big pocket in the eyes of the law. Anyway, it was sour grapes for dad since all the money he won on the bet had to be used to bail Uncle Luke out. And now he’s in the cooler and has no money still.

They’ve already arraigned dad and denied bail. Not for the assault, but since the judge said dad was pretending to be black. Yeah, I didn’t even know judges could do that, it’s new to me. The judge called it contempt, but dad called him a motherfucker so they’re at a standstill—dad’s in jail and will probably be there until the next hearing. At least until he apologizes to the judge or brings in some genealogical evidence there’s an African-American in his family tree. I’m betting the last one will be the more likely thing to happen.

Now my mom doesn’t want to live at home while he’s “visiting orange jumpsuit camp,” so she’s pushing hard to live with me. I’ve actually already agreed to it, but she hasn’t shown up yet—you pay $69 for a bus ticket and it takes forever before you get your mother. It’s gonna be hellish living conditions, I know that up front, but she should do all the cooking and cleaning since it’s her way of dominating everybody, just like the shrink said. Call me crazy (he did), but I don’t mind being a little domination if it means French toast for breakfast and clean towels in the bathroom.

It’s just temporary, I’ve laid down the law about that. Dad is bound to get a suspended sentence like last time and once he’s out, she’s out. I don’t want this to be some kind of sneak plan to move in with me now that my new show is about to take off. I separated all my bank accounts from theirs when I was 18, and they were eager to do it, too—now that I’m riding high again it’s just their tough luck if I’ve actually got money in it.

The show is still in post-production and negotiations, which means it’s not on TV and may never be, but there’s still a reasonable assumption it could be. This is the part of the business I hate. Actually, I’m not too fond of the auditioning, the rehearsing, the taping, reading the boring scripts, looking over contracts and seeking work, and the acting part is a little stupid, too. I suppose if they paid me money and just showed me on TV all the time that would be cool. But once again, I haven’t figured out how to get on The Real World. It probably involves auditioning, too. But I’ve still got the mom situation to deal with in the meantime, and if she’s not here by tomorrow I’ll have to file a claim with Greyhound or something.

Flying High with the Pilot
As if it needed saying, I did stupendous. I haven’t acted in a long, long time, and it really shows—I have boundless energy. There was even a few times the director had to stop the shoot to tell me to stop moving around in the background, or get out of the scene since I wasn’t in it.

Sister, Can You Spare a Dime?
I went to see her at her office and it was worse than I thought—all this big talk of success was just a sham, the place is a real dump. Her law office is all the way up on the 30th floor and she shares it with a bunch of other lawyers, though her name is first, good deal there, I’m really impressed.

I Have a Lazy E-Mailman
It’s still no excuse for the teamster-like attitude of my computer. This computer wouldn’t work if I threatened to replace it with cheap foreign labor. It starts slow, it runs slow, it even turns off slow.

The Big Clarissa Coleman Comeback
None of it should come as much of a surprise, seeing as how I mentioned I had the audition and felt pretty good about it last go-round. Of course I didn’t mention the show title—what, like I’m going to advertise to a bunch of wanna-bes the location of the next big audition?